The not-so me

When working station is not a place for you to mingle around bcause of u being a minority..
When home is not a place for you to share happiness or sadness because of u being unattached..
When friends are only to say hi and bye, and speak when needed or for advice only..

You'll feel that there's no one for you out there to care on your life, to share on your laughters and theirs, to have two way conversation and bonding..

Except for your family and some who are far away and some who used to be with

And that makes me miss them very much..and struggle being strong by days

And...

That's how I feel.

I may not show signs of sadness, but be mindful..everyone has emotions :'(

Whoelse is closest to you, if it's not the ppl living under ur roof?

Wallahu'alam

Impact

Alhamdulillahh..rasa mcm xpercaya yg kerja yg dibuat selama ni sbnrnya beri impact pada dunia di luar.

Pada mulanya nampak mcm sekadar adjust slides, discussion, meeting, technical debate, theoretical issues and concepts, etc. Berbulan2 buat bnda gini.

Tapi rupanya, benda2 ni lah yg mghasilkan something yg mungkin presentation nya hnya ambil 1 jam dan buy in dari industry hanya dlm 5-15 minit.

Otw balik pukul 715pm,  dalam perasaan gembira, sy reflek.

Agaknya begini jugaklah bila kita brusrah, bawa usrah, ulang alik pegi program dgn org2 yg sama jugak, meetg nampak teori, debat bnda yg xhabis, qudwah xserupa kalimah, dan mcm2 lagi, yg pada fikiran dan hasutan, hanyalah perkara2 teori dan boleh hidup bahagia tanpa bnda2 ni.
Tapi, serupa dgn projek yg sy buat tu, sbnrnya mmg ada impact di luar sana dan sedikit sebanyak, kerja2 yg teori dan usaha2 yg berterusan tu lah yg akan mencorakkan impact tersebut.

Hmm..deep2....

Sekian utk hari ni.

Alhamdulillah.

Wallahu'alam

Work

Sometimes I hope to be a perfectionist.

Or maybe..

I'm sometimes become impatient with my learning curve?

Well..maybe.

P.s: when you always have to work alone and find that your work is always dissatisfying. Sigh.
P.ss: everytime going back. Walking alone. Look up on the sky. I try to make me feel that my heart is there, and Allah is with me. Go forward. Smile.

Wallahu'alam